Journal!

I just finished an amazing workshop, which is held by Education Department, only for English alternative military. This is a 3-days and 2-nights workshop at 櫻花渡假村 in Ping tong, arranged by 崇文國小. It is good for me to meet up other 116ts again. I had talked a lot and shared my unique experience with others. Honestly, I feel shamed after talking with them since I heard that they had done many meaningful things for their schools and students. They said that they were busy on co-teaching with foreign teachers. Unlike them, I only do remedial teaching and only prepare games for students in class, cuz I don't want them to pissed me off in class, such as bad performance on prepared test. Or, I am just lazy and tired of devote myself teaching them.  I don't know. When I was taking workshop in Chenchien lake, I had a lot of ideas for my students. But, once I got in the school, they were gone. I couldn't have my passion anymore. I don't know how long it takes to get it back. Maybe, I am a selfish person, who only focus on his own, such as studying in financial knowledge. I am far away from my students and never try to listen to them with an expectation of what they should know or do everything. That is why I felt shameful after hearing from other 116ts' experiences. I wish I could have done many things, too.

Where is my passion for my students? In fact, I have much passion for financial knowledge. How could I turn it into my students? it is kind of difficult for me tho.

Btw, one year ago, I can write a 600-words essay in 30 minutes, but now I can't even write a journal. WTF.

Journal

In the course of three months, I have done nothing. There isn't anything I have gotten, but my attitude changed. In the past, I rushed and pushed myself to get what I am longing for. Now, I kicked myself out of target, slowing down myself and putting me in a position without uncertainty. I live in routinely schedule and lose in a steady path. Life is boring, but has no ways to change. Pursuant to law, I have to. So, I have done nothing. Surprisingly, I can smile and get greater motivation in this fucking shit. I don't feel hatred of this shit. Indeed, it is a shit if nothing I can physically get. I can only take shits from everyone in daily life. But, sometimes taking shits encourages me, especially for an immovable shit. Take and eat it, that is the only way.
Despite the fact that I have gotten nothing, I would like to say I strength my mentality that I wasn't paying attention before. I've thought that I could be successful as long as I devote myself learning knowledge. In fact, the most powerful knowledge is mentality. Look back to 1960s, people lived in a tougher situation. Look now, we have a much better living standard than before, but we sucks. We lose our intrinsic value in a great pace of development. We lose our mentality while obtaining physical modern masterpiece. I think I have already found a way to learn what perseverance is.

Journal!!!

In these days, I have always thought if I got a second time to make a decision, should I stay away from alternative military service. The answer is clearly no. I am willing to do it even though I waste one year lifetime. Indeed, my friends, who are graduated from Baruch College with me at the same semester, have obtained great offers from companies. Even some of them have already gotten amazing jobs. As for me, I am stuck with alternative military service. But, the thing is that I am born a resident of Republic of China (Taiwan). I shouldn't keep my responsibility away from while speaking up that I am a Taiwanese. So, I came back. And, fortunately, I have selected a good school,  the people of which are very nice and adorable. Besides, I get much of free time in the evening. In fact, as long as there isn't a student in school, I am free. It could be a great chance for me to catch up something that I may need in the future. I took excel book out of drawer and retrieve the skills that I learned before. Sometimes, it is good to stay in a point rather than moving ahead blindly.

Journal!!

I have served my responsibility in Shuang Feng Elementary school for one month. To be honest, I am not sure what I am actually doing now, taking a one-year vacation or being an army, even though many of my friends said that I was not an army. One month ago, I told myself to be well-prepared for children, especially for those who have trouble studying English. In the course of first month, I found out an issue that some students hate studying it, and just hate it. Since I haven't had any experiences before, I, for sure, have nothing to do with it. Back to my childhood, I don't like to study English either. As my teachers talked about vocabulary, I slept. While talking about grammar, I slept deeply. What about listening and speaking, I was out of class. Yeah, I didn't like it cuz no freaking motivation. Until I was told to apply Business English Major in Da Cheng High school, I was obligated to pass the course. I remember that was freaking horrible time for me. I don't even know what is there or they. When my teacher gave me an English name, I couldn't spell it at the end of class. Fortunately, I met up a great person, who helped me in the class, test, and homework. As long as I asked him, he solved it for me. My English was improving tremendously. What I am trying to say in here is that learning English in Taiwan is mandatory. No incentives, however, is a big problem. I can't enjoy learning the connotation of English in school and after-school program. The only thing I HAVE TO enjoy is freaking examination. So, it is very hard to let those children as mentioned above love studying English because they don't like it truly. They don't why they have to learn it at school. I think the biggest problem is education itself.

Journal

I feel a little sad since Taiwan lost the game against Korea, but at least I saw the improvement of Taiwanese players within these years. Taiwanese players are able to make solid contact on 150+ fastball. Also, they can     get strikes to be fouls while two strikes, which let them have more opportunity to get a hit and then to have more scores. I am really proud of being a Taiwanese and seeing those players improving their skills year by year. I believe that they can head to USA with an advance toward to final round, trying to let other countries know us. We are the Best. Taiwan!!!!

Journal!

Omg, I just found out that would be very easy to see my last post in the website as long as surfers key "Shuang Feng Elementary school" in the Google search engine. I shouldn't say something bad about the accountant, lol. To be honest, she is a great person and treats us very good. I sincerely thank her for taking care of me. But, sometimes, I don't really understand if a person insists on making up a "super formula" to make things easier, even that actually makes harder. I can realize that she likes to learn stuff and put them in the work. However, the "super formula" used in excel needs a pretty good front end, such as an accurate data entry. By doing so, the "super formula" will be executed in an amazing speed. I believe that is too hard for us to re-create a new worksheet now because of too much work. As I estimated, there would be 22 worksheets in one documentation. At the first worksheet of "the documentation", there are names, address, date of birth, and total number received from......(whatever, I don't know). Until now, it seems freaking normal, but here the weird is. She kept typing names and numbers in other 21 worksheets. Fortunately, she knows that she can use copy and paste to complete them within 1 minutes. But, shit happens as always. Approximately 15 worksheets have new names required to add in, which sounds very easy at first time, We just need to insert a row and to type in. But, when we have several worksheets, it is so-called "fuck-up". Because of this experience, I re-do the first worksheet and make a formula on second worksheet. And then, I set up the auto-update. Hence, now, we only insert at first worksheet if we need, and then other worksheets will automatically update. Next time, I will make pivot table and sort out the data.

Btw, I will start my after-school program on March 11. I don't know how many students will come and how much they can get into. It is very stressful "liability" that I have to pay in mandatory. If children shout at me, playing in the classroom, even bullying  others, I can't walk away because I am serving for alternative military service. Love, service, duty, order<=yeah, four stupid words push me being a great guy, showing a smile face all the time. In hope of a wonderful experience is my best wish now.

How to teach starters about A, B, C, D, E, F, G...etc...<=just like a sign, no intrinsic value to talk about.

Journal!

Well, last week was my first week of serving at Shuang Feng Elementary School. I spent longer than expected learning daily tasks, which I have to do in this year. I believe I can make the school much more beautiful and am able to perform outstanding skills. Unfortunately, although it is my first week and is supposed to have a lot of things to know, I still feel bored. I couldn't get any difficulties within 6 days. Of course, moving 8 big tables to another classroom sounds freaking difficult, but that doesn't make me think. Nothing I need to brainstorm myself, but only office job. The only accountant in the school is just like she doesn't know what she actually wants. She asks me or my senior to do something for her, without giving us the target. I was curious of how she has been able to work at Government for almost 15 years. She couldn't take care of easy crap stuff by herself. She "looks" or really contribute herself to the position, but I don't see any efficient completion. The only thing is that she asks us to check numbers for her. Ironically, I know how much each of teachers, principle and cleaner get paid in this school. If they have any problems with salary, benefits, tax return and petty cash expenses, I will know them firstly and possibly report to the government associated with inappropriate use of fund or tax-dodging.

All in all, I felt bored at the first week and expect to learn stuff while serving. Let's see what I can learn from mandatory service in Taiwan.