Journal!

I just finished an amazing workshop, which is held by Education Department, only for English alternative military. This is a 3-days and 2-nights workshop at 櫻花渡假村 in Ping tong, arranged by 崇文國小. It is good for me to meet up other 116ts again. I had talked a lot and shared my unique experience with others. Honestly, I feel shamed after talking with them since I heard that they had done many meaningful things for their schools and students. They said that they were busy on co-teaching with foreign teachers. Unlike them, I only do remedial teaching and only prepare games for students in class, cuz I don't want them to pissed me off in class, such as bad performance on prepared test. Or, I am just lazy and tired of devote myself teaching them.  I don't know. When I was taking workshop in Chenchien lake, I had a lot of ideas for my students. But, once I got in the school, they were gone. I couldn't have my passion anymore. I don't know how long it takes to get it back. Maybe, I am a selfish person, who only focus on his own, such as studying in financial knowledge. I am far away from my students and never try to listen to them with an expectation of what they should know or do everything. That is why I felt shameful after hearing from other 116ts' experiences. I wish I could have done many things, too.

Where is my passion for my students? In fact, I have much passion for financial knowledge. How could I turn it into my students? it is kind of difficult for me tho.

Btw, one year ago, I can write a 600-words essay in 30 minutes, but now I can't even write a journal. WTF.